Remind me again,

what the *************** I think I'm doing.

They Told Me There Was a Fire

and that you had been hurt
my only regret was that I missed the chance
to roast marshmallows.




Wow that was HORRIBLE! but mildly funny. No it was not directed at anyone. I'm a good person, that's just random stuff from my brain.

The Way Out Is In

Once upon a time


I thought it was over.





Nope. Not even close.





There's no way I'll ever be rid of this.





And... right now anyway, I don't think I want to be.

Tool - The Patient


Radiohead - Street Spirit

HI.

So much, it seems,
Has changed.
Life is full of variables,
It seems I am assigned to be
the only constant.
As my friends
Move to different places,
Show different faces,
Change their lives,
or give them away,
I am here.
Still the same.
It seems I always will be
Here.
Just being.
Come to me with your problems,
for I have empathy beyond my years.
Come to me with your problems,
and I will give anything to dry your tears.
Here I am.
Here I will be.
Still the same
as I have always been.
I hold on to you,
my precious Variables.
I beg you,
"Please! Stay with me!
You are all living,
and I cannot follow!
Become constant,
like me,
So I won't be alone anymore!"
Yet, I love you,
Variables,
so I let you wander
as you please.

O colourful world

feel like I'm dreaming
move like I'm drunk
see as if I'm high
there's these moments,
like I'm on XTC
feeling
breathing
not seeing
not thinking
who knows anything anyway?
Not me!
I'm caught in this
whirlwind
in a colourful world
that flashes to grey
as I spin spin spin
away
away
...away
out of sight
out of mind
oh where am I?
I have gone
into the grey.
maybe someday
I will come home.

Oh So Much Has Changed

Hahaha

So now that my collar is at the bottom of a lake,
and I've lost the man I loved with all my life,
I both hate everything and love everything.

It's quite nice to be holding my own leash,
but that means I can't run to him anymore.
Which is devastating.

And oh, I'm coping okay...
I suppose.
I only cut once, which is pretty good.
And I didn't kill myself, which believe me, was on the top of my to-do list on that night.
Yeah.... went out driving in the rain... and lemme tell you, I had NO intention of coming back.
But then I realized, he isn't/wasn't what made me valuble, and while he was the reason I'm still alive today, that doesn't mean he was the only thing making me worthy of living.
So here I am. Here's to many more days of weary wonder.

Cheers,
- E

Trump.

I know you love me.