Oh So Much Has Changed

Hahaha

So now that my collar is at the bottom of a lake,
and I've lost the man I loved with all my life,
I both hate everything and love everything.

It's quite nice to be holding my own leash,
but that means I can't run to him anymore.
Which is devastating.

And oh, I'm coping okay...
I suppose.
I only cut once, which is pretty good.
And I didn't kill myself, which believe me, was on the top of my to-do list on that night.
Yeah.... went out driving in the rain... and lemme tell you, I had NO intention of coming back.
But then I realized, he isn't/wasn't what made me valuble, and while he was the reason I'm still alive today, that doesn't mean he was the only thing making me worthy of living.
So here I am. Here's to many more days of weary wonder.

Cheers,
- E